12/5/2011

time to return.^Its a cloudy morning after a sallow rain last night. i caught the breakfast which is rich. now i felt had to write something to make this blog complete. the sick office i intended to ditch still let me ill for the sinful souls in it any time desperately challenge me, like China surveillance exerts all over scan and constrain over me. life on this scarred continent dominated by dog, including machine dog. but, after all, God, don't u see my life beaming so bright, my level of satisfaction ever increasing in ur blisses? God, last night u touched me with girl's love, i do missing my girls even urgent. in this rained air from 4th floor, God, i entreat ur bringing me my new family with my girls sooner. that's my beautiful hope in this lovable wet morning. 

11/5/2011

a busy month puffing for online stuff.^this month i almost absent from my blog sphere. the reason is that i picked up my old hobby, collecting free stuff from web, esp. the shared, for i valued them high and no cause not to harvest while they still available in the spirit of freedom or pirate. everyday ends in elation with what heaps on my hard disk, for they mean happy time, no matter games or readings, under attraction of freedom world, esp from US. its really like a weightless dive, in God's shine.
last night i slept later, reviewing my chat below, God brings me insight in tangles among folks in my past dad's hometown village, Zhudajiu, mostly from a same ancestor, but devils among them drove the lost trying to challenge and defame my old family which so brilliant in its short earthly presence before i witness it vivid. i saw hostile so strong even generations unable shift the acid jealousy. God, u see the strong baring from the stem of Royal of China, and the even boarder world stage for my baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, future world leader every blessed sees. God, road toward glory unbiased straight for my family since my past dad, God in Heaven now. God, in this raining night, i see all bliss since my childhood, i witness the most scenery in the world my dad unveiled to me, in the mountain and its valley. God, the doomed against my Empire of China now even losing, harsher tools from the stolen state power barking desperate, God, u save and only ur word persist in one that untouchable. God, thank the month and today, thank the rain and thunders outside in this darker prelude of summer night. 

10/5/2011

a chat online via qq with hometown folk, a childhood friend.^ [ 2011-05-10 ] 
benzrad朱子卓 16:13:31 
真不容易见到你。生意怎样，生活顺心吗？ 
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benzrad朱子卓 16:16:00 
我的生活还不错，跟我儿子朱楚甲玩电脑游戏给我挺多乐趣。就是工资低，因为自从2006跟单位弄僵后没有具体工作，爱干啥干啥。现在盼着有结余坐飞机去看老家亲人。 
朱才魁 16:16:01 
您好，我现在有事不在，一会再和您联系。 
朱才魁 16:50:36 
我去年过年在家里过的 
朱才魁 16:51:00 
一家人都回去了 
benzrad朱子卓 16:51:14 
恭喜。我老家就两个姐姐我觉得亲一些。 
benzrad朱子卓 16:52:15 
你三弟现在靠谱一些不？前年在朱大九见到他儿子。 
朱才魁 16:53:34 
还不是长不大，现在两个儿子了，还不是我父母来管 
benzrad朱子卓 16:54:06 
真的很难跟他小时候的可爱和你说的现在的样子联系起来。不过，谁也不能看准谁的命运。 
benzrad朱子卓 16:54:59 
你父母那样不对吧，应该让他自己承担责任，否则总是没有机会看清他自己的处境。 
benzrad朱子卓 16:55:39 
有很多事得自己来，别人越帮越乱。 
benzrad朱子卓 16:55:53 
你几个孩子？ 
朱才魁 16:56:16 
现在想想也是我父母管教子女的方法不对，生的子女都是没用的 
朱才魁 16:56:57 
我还能有几个，一个儿子跟你一样 
benzrad朱子卓 16:57:52 
不要悲观，人多数看不准的，命运能让劣势变成优势。真的。 
朱才魁 16:58:58 
也没有呀，现在都是靠自己，过得也不错呀 
benzrad朱子卓 16:59:12 
你三弟不喜欢家庭和孩子也可能他的锐气太重，那也可能是好事。一句话，凡事别太用定势去看，因为人实在太弱小。 
benzrad朱子卓 16:59:56 
那就好。快乐最好，千金难买。 
benzrad朱子卓 17:00:37 
下班了，你在店门面吗？ 
朱才魁 17:01:38 
那个我是这样想的，人一辈子，年轻没受过苦，到长大总得吃苦头 
朱才魁 17:01:57 
现在是在家里的 
朱才魁 17:02:07 
店没做了 
benzrad朱子卓 17:04:54 
那现在怎么谋生？人命好我觉得不用你说的那些繁复。报应的看法很必然导致佛教。我觉得佛教是误人子弟，坑害中国人几千年。 
benzrad朱子卓 17:06:15 
世界的模式很可能不是像佛教的零和和孤寂。我这么想。 
朱才魁 17:06:52 
现在还是做生意呀 
benzrad朱子卓 17:08:12 
基督教教人相信万能的独神，这个信仰就能改变世界，即使极端的不自由也不能缚绊那个大自由。 
朱才魁 17:09:38 
人年轻的时候父母宠爱没吃过苦，长大了，父母帮不了，自己吃苦是必然的，这不是什么教，这是经验呀 
benzrad朱子卓 17:09:54 
不辩论了。 
朱才魁 17:11:08 
那也是没办法之后的办法了，人活着总得生活 
benzrad朱子卓 17:11:16 
我爸从不让我尝尝他的工作的苦，所以我今天的世界比他的更好。父母的爱能这样提高孩子。 
朱才魁 17:14:06 
父母不能溺爱子女，小时候让孩子吃点苦，子女大了，才能更好的应对生活呀 
benzrad朱子卓 17:17:19 
真心的爱，包括父母的真爱，是不会不想到孩子大的一天，独立的一天，自私的爱才是窒息人的。你的父母可能原本就是有不对的，在他们对你的三弟的态度里，所以你三弟这么逆。你怎么不相信世界上的事都是一个巴掌拍不响呢？！ 
朱才魁 17:19:23 
这不是每个做家长的都能做的好的，要不怎么说是溺爱呢 
benzrad朱子卓 17:21:10 
你对。 
朱才魁 17:23:37 
我这是自身体会呀，现在走到这一步，真的吃了蛮多亏的 
benzrad朱子卓 17:28:34 
要用感灵的话说，你的生活多少都是你期待或接受的，人生每一步都有选择，如果你觉得世界在你的生活中提供选项太少，那很可能是你还未开化，你的世界原本就是黑暗的。看见恩典，就看见了光明，看见了自由（选项）。 
朱才魁 17:30:39 
你这又是那来的大道理，我看不大懂 
benzrad朱子卓 17:34:05 
我去吃饭了，再聊。祝你生活更开心和满意。 
朱才魁 17:35:14 
好的， 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:12:13 
我觉得我刚才的发言不错，想留到我博客里给我儿子将来看，我把你的名改成“朱才魁”，行不？不是单独作为一个博客日记发表，而是作为一周的日记里的一天，跟其他几个工作日的日记一起发布，行不？盼你回复。我的博客：http://riveryog.blog.163.com 
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:12:49 
我不会那些东东 
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:14:44 
你爱咋弄随你 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:15:28 
你不用管，真名隐去，就是在对话中显示我的思路。看起来就是这样： 
太长聊天窗口发不过去，你放心就是。 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:15:48 
我写博客4-5年了， 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:15:58 
就是自己的生活和想法。 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:16:51 
就是从聊天记录里拷贝下来。你看聊天记录，就是这样。 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:16:57 
谢谢你放心。 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:18:50 
西方叫信神的“spiritual”，中文叫灵修。就是有心人观察到人人心灵互动，世界大有逻辑。 
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:19:51 
你的话真是多哦 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:20:33 
我在得精神病后，放弃了强要，就开始观察到神的存在。然后读一些书。 
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:22:28 
书也不能当饭吃呀，也试着做点什么赚点钱呀 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:22:43 
每个人的道路都是有缘的，都是神的安排。我从来觉得自己不差，所以亲神是必然归宿。当然，我的父亲给我巨大的指引。 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:24:00 
你难道不知道你的道路是不用求的吗？我现在很好，为什么要去争庸人的东西？ 
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:25:32 
金钱不是万能的，没有金钱是万万不能的呀 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:25:53 
你要是感恩，你就不这么苦痛你过去吃过的所谓的亏。 
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:28:02 
我吃亏是指我生活的态度，不是钱的错 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:29:11 
富裕没有极限，我现在觉得我的生活里的东西够用，就是我上面说的恩典，我相信这是神的安排，我为什么要去做神不让我做的东西，比如张皇或抱怨？感恩就是富足。 
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:30:45 
你说的也是，知足常乐，也不用为钱苦恼 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:33:32 
难道钱多就能买来一切吗？比如纯真，或执信？人没法返回到童年，钱也没法洗赎不公正。 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:34:03 
今天我是话多。 
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:36:31 
唉，有钱我就不会让父母受那么多的苦了 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:38:09 
有可能你父母一直预料着他们的今天。 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:39:41 
你现在开始不指责或耽心你家里的亲属，他们可能就真的慢慢不用你了。 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:40:38 
你不记得你爷爷吗？他抱怨他的生活吗？我记得他很少担忧。 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:41:20 
很有可以你父母心理不成熟。 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:43:58 
成年人过分姿态僵硬，不通融，可能就是不成熟。毕竟世上人没有太对的。尊重年轻人和新社会就是睿智。 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:46:08 
你家可能太在意经济上出人头地。老是耽心落困就可能招来贫困。我觉得真有信心的人总是会看着机会和繁荣。 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:47:34 
佛教是最典型的看空的信仰，结果真的使中国一步比一步羸弱和破败。 
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:50:01 
这话智者说过很多遍：你想什么你就是什么。现实就是你的视野和天空。注意：一般人会说你的视野就是你的现实。 

7/5/2011

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riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：

no doubt it did so long.

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riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：for the sins in PRC, and most of the survivor&their offspring after civil war as well as sino-Japan war half century ago.

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riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：wonderful! glory to American people once and forever!

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riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：God, grant me an improved workplace. save my energy from trifle violence ambushed by enemies of my Empire of China.  2011-05-03 08:58 来自 网易微博

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its again a bright morning. i visit office directly after got up. God seemingly put too much turns around me upon my request of my 3rd wife, my girl zhou. but this morning on way to office, i again saw a tall girl in red short coat, long white boot, walked ahead me with a female companion. the day before yesterday i busy in office till 5pm, waiting call back from my hometown and my baby’s mom, for we arranged to video chat online. but they all don’t buzzed when i stayed online in office. near 5pm, i buzzed baby’s mom’s home, they just returned from baby’s grandma’s home. i visit them at once. in ema’s house, i installed games for baby, and played together awhile with baby. ema said games i installed last time brought baby quite some good time on it. i also synchronized data among 3 computers. when all ready, i called hometown folks again, and we met online. but my kid brother wasted lots of time to configure his netbook to work. my mother first time in last year seeing my baby live online. when i prepared to leave around 8pm, baby son suggested me live a night there, so i stayed&watched movie online with him. ema cooked me a dinner& a breakfast, she also brought me some food. after i returned dorm near 11am, i dozed for more than an hour. then visited office, trying to meet my kid brother, as God lets. but in fact all the afternoon prepared a clean os&backup. dined in a restaurant on way to dorm. in dorm enjoyed food from ema, and continued backup os to portable.

its a brilliant day today, no doubt it will be so. my claim of my girl zhou never changes, for its God’s setting. i hope the light of colorful sheds me sooner in the coming lunar Lantern Day.

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leaving KFC Fu-Mart franchise.

benzrad, 朱子卓, me, in baby’s focus.

baby son, warrenzh, 朱楚甲, talking.

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14/1/2010
bright day.^last night slept in time around 9:20pm, after prepared a blog entry enhenced by Holy message 3 times. woke up before 6am&got up before 7am, went to office at once. posted the blog entry first, then read within my greader. Its again a bright day. read after posted daily tweet. my girl zhou don’t appear in QRRS noon break. the department summoned to collect fund for charity, i submit 40rmb but don’t attend the meeting. the facing dog also mimic me, stayed in office to espionage me&shit around. when i again spit to the floor, the gay barked upon me. i retorted for the sake of my family, as God lets. soon the monitor returned&mopped the floor. also at noon fine tuned baby’s blog&wiki, ie. url remapping, sidebar, etc. China surveillance since then blocked my gtalk&google reader. the department director also visit the office&watched my operation on baby’s google blog custom domain redirection. returned to dorm, went to receive my girl zhou in front of QRRS HQ directly after dinner after 4pm. there r 3 men playing kites there. my girl didn’t appear all time. 2 girls look like her&i tried to follow, but i felt more likely my girl evading me this moment. returned dorm right 6pm, and when i launched logging today, the nearby senior middle school break for dinner. God promised me its an auspicious day. roamed out at 6:30pm, found several QRRSers returning to its HQ, so likely some departments, including my girl zhou’s, overclocked in this lunar year end for audit or other financial reason. bought myself food, partially in memory of my Guangdong girl Feng, and enjoyed in dorm. re-read my last post wrote in Holy message last night on my cell’s wap access, roamed out again when body response told me my girl missing me, reach QRRS front gate then returned to dorm, where when i picked to log, the nearby students finished their day work&flocking to their home. its all so bright! so vivid and living and meaningful! my girl zhou, pl relax urself if u tired, pl drink when u thirst. i will dream tonight in ur arms. the stars scatters in the moonless sky attending our breath together in sweet.i tasted ur sweats u scattered daytime, and smell ur body perfume in floral garden we own in mid night Heaven. i love u so, my dearest girl, Queen of China, of my Royal. seas pacified when u on dream land, mountains arrest wind wolfing like a shallow of dripping leave from moon under ur closed eyelids. bye, my dearest, bye from this lonely night we r separated temporary by God’s red wire. bye and sweet in ur heart, bye and fresh when dawn light wakes up. bye for now for the blessed, bye for God’s love among us. bye, i love u, my angel, my heart&soul.

Sent from Qiqihar, 23, China

read most of the day while cared d/l. showered in public bathroom after noon. Its a bright day&felt relieved about baby’s playing with his penis. when i returned from bathroom the evil grandma doing chores at home&lately left even didn’t finish many tasks. played with baby while watching TV after dinner. ema watched Korea TV series online while i try stuff got from web. baby watched animation online most of day, except playing pc game with his visiting cousin awhile.

baby watched animation in night. urged ema to check her courseware, then refined it till late night, mainly adding clicking to ran flash. relative path in playlist troubled me so long that i had to gave up playlist with playing each click.

dreamed of won awards of 3 notebooks, including a small one which likes a tablet. dreamed queues of prisoners, while one or two hooligan jump the queue&raise gossips. the wife&brother-in-law of my once collegue, a Sun (in Chinses means grandson) in family name, visited me&urged me, who likely trapped, endue to see my future changes.

read in the morning while baby son watched animation online. backup some stuff to dvd&catalog. all afternoon refined ema’s ppt courseware for her teaching demo. later search way to make ms 2007 ppt compatible with google docs. it likely to snow in night.

rest with watching Korea TV series while let d/l. bewildering for the coming new life let me anxious. gamed awhile after baby returned. told baby my elation on new life with my girls. tried online TV, esp. Discovery channel while baby played with sticker his mom bought him. God, i don’t miss none, my girls and my baby son, God of universe and Hope of China.

got up with ema&baby son,but sleepy so dozed again. dreamed of passed dad, God of universe, and his great task. dreamed living in a single house near cliff, where i tried to learn driving forth no matter the mass support or against. also dreamed of campus canteen.